A Post with No Ending or Point
This post is long overdue, and a fair warning, may be a little bit all over the place. I hate to say that I've been "too busy" to blog, but I truly have been too busy. I've been pulled in a million different directions between motherhood and business. In addition, we took a vacation last month, and then my dad ended up in the hospital. I tried to keep everyone updated on Instagram, and appreciate all of the love and prayers we received.
Mom life has been a struggle lately. Bodie has been in a phase that has challenged me in ways I never thought I'd have to deal with. We ended up having to sign a lease again on our little apartment because our property isn't ready yet. Now we are going to plan B or maybe we are now at C... can't remember. I just want to be in our home, you know?
Photography has exploded for me, and I am beyond thrilled, but always struggling with time management. I've spent so much time emailing clients, making phone calls, and making sure that my brand and message always remain at the front line of all that I do... At night I'm just tired. I want to make sure that my photography remains authentic to me. I want to always capture the beauty and realness in life. I want my photography to always inspire people to live their best lives.
I have a list of things to do: A logo that needs to get created (I've been putting this off for a year, and seriously feel SO stuck); my print shop that needs to be entirely updated; content that needs to be created. Soooo much content. As my social media has grown, I've started dreaming up some new possibilities that I hadn't even considered. I've struggled to figure out exactly what my purpose in the social media world may be. I feel like I'm creating something I didn't set out to create, and I am really really really excited. Sometimes it all makes sense and other times I'm confused and frozen.
Have I somehow stepped into the realm of being considered an "influencer?" There are over 30K people in my community, and I LOVE having this super powerful platform. I always ask myself, how can I use this said influence for the greater good? How can I use it to make a real difference in people's lives? How can I benefit my followers? And how can I make a living by doing this, while remaining true to who I am and my values? Where am I ultimately going? I know there isn't an answer per se, but these are some of the thoughts I have been having.
I've been forcing myself to get my yoga + workouts in, drink a little less coffee, and up my veggies. Coffee and pastries seem to be what I crave. Also pizza. I think it is how I want to cope with being busy. Last week I decided I would go to the beach everyday, and not worry about the to do list. So far, I have done just that! Its really made a difference. I quit the 9-5 and moved here for the lifestyle. I created this business to support the lifestyle. I must ALWAYS remain true to just that.
I looked at my schedule today, and everything that needs to be accomplished this week is done (minus the logo and print shop stuff) , and everything that is new to begin hasn't quite started yet. My son had a playdate this morning, and then we are doing a family get together on the beach with friends later today. I knew we would have some downtime in the middle of the day, and that this would be the perfect time to blog. Voila. I did it. I should celebrate!
Maybe this post doesn't really need to be wrapped up with a nice ending. Maybe I don't have to always have something grand or profound to include.
Maybe I can just share today. Yes?
Lots of love from the beach,